I Miss U˙

okay..2day's quite busy but fun.hav cca games wits mi jrs n get 2 noe more abt thm.i realised tt i m kinda bonded 2 mi cca n its quite interested in mi cca stuff.which is gd.so i can conc miself on othr stuff instead of heavy schl works.yup.tts realli gd 4 mi.cox i nid sum distraction in e sense tt i can conc on sum othr thins instead of mi schl life,which is quite horrible recently.


i duno wad im talkin in e 1st para la.lol.pardon mi.im kinda lost i thk?aftr lettin go sum quite impt thins in mi life?e last tym i let go is 5 yrs ago.but sayin tt i had let go its jus lyin 2miself.seriously.
i hvn let go a single thin in mi life.im jus bein selfish.tryin 2 hold on 2 sth,or sumone tt doesn't belong 2 mi.

sum zhang zheng yue's music,pardon mi if i spell his name wrongly
http://xsdisk.hfyc.net/myfile/alex613722/lukou.mp3路口

http://api.ning.com/files/-UOsCXDQFwHzBGSN4DCmTE4RbOsqzbHwfnw5oTLqbVU_/file.mp3思念是一種病(PS e lyrics quite nice if u can undrstnd.lol)
再見is also quite nice,i'll post anthr day if i gt tym.haha

anw i jus discovered tt...

i starts2 lyk his songs le,lol.

mayb its bcox it suits mi feelin now,haha.

XK*

New Start˙

okay...so i kinda chnge mi blogskin,as in totally.by e help of mi fren nadarin,lol.her nickname so cute..
anw..i expected mi amaths 2 fail as i didnt realli put in much effort n its a last min work..

wad im realli guilty abt is tt i had let all e ppl who trusted mi or help mi dwn.
tts e worst thin i can gt in mi life la..seriously.haiz...

i had made up mi mind 2 TRY 2 do well in mi upcomin probability n set test.i hope.wits mi pathetic amt of prac?..i thk i jus nid more prac,im simply 2 lazy.

n its dangerous 2 thk tt way cox its O level tis yr...

its realli a tym 2 buck up.n wake up.

okay,so 2 miself:

stop emoin.n wake up.


XK*

Happy Weekend˙

ok..2day's quite happy n free,wake up in e mornin n go 2 changi airport 2 eat mi breakfast..hoo.. how nice it can b.mi 1st tym havin breakfast outside?or 2nd?cant realli rmb
but anw,i ended up goin 2 terminal3 cox i went e wrong direction..haiz..but gt 2 see terminal 3 for 3 e 1st tym?lol..its quite pretty..n big. but e prob is i cant find MAC!!tts where im supposed 2 hav mi breakfast!

so i guess ppl hangin arnd there will c a person walkin w exaggerated strips shirt w belt n walkin arnd lyk abt 35mins or more?lol...n yes,im wearin a leopard skin shirt..haha..i finally noe y its embarrassin 2 wear those kind of shirt,cox ppl will lyk kp starin at u?loll..
n i let mi hair dwn for once cox e air con is v strong n i nid sum "protection",haha..
met fang ying whn goin, i thk she's kind of shock or sumhow cox guess its her 1st tym see mi lyk tis?lol

anw its a fun day,n i gt 2 enjoy miself 4 at least once aftr so long tym.

Changes˙

Up 2 tis pt of mi life there's few changes,tt is,memorial 4 mi 2 rmb thm..

1st shld b mi primary schl life,where everyone makin frens n i hav mi most impt stuff giv away 2 sumbody..cough..pls dun b mislead by tis..oh well..

n up 2 sec schl where halfway cum 2 s'pore n tts mi horrible startin of mi miserable life..lol..

but there's still sum goodness aftr cumin here..

cox i met u.

n i tht tt we're quite a gd fren tho we're opp sex

tt is at least we can talk freely abt anythin,wits sum irritatin teasin of each othrs..but well,tts ok.

n i tht everythin would b jus find til e pt i found out mi feelin 2wards u,n i thk u noe.cox its obvious.

everythin jus wnt wrong frm there n i was,frankly spkin,super dwn 4 a v v v v long period.
its amazin 2 found out i was trapped in tis kind of embarrassed n awkward situation.its jus so nt me.

im supposed 2 b optimistic,n simple-minded.

but y am i so worried n sad ovr wadeva little damn thin u say?y am i so concern of anythin related 2 u,ur rumors,ur frens,ur life?

i thk tis is wad is call emoin.u tend 2 thk alot unneccessary thin u c?n its useless 2 thk so cox it mite nt b true.or e person mite nt b carin.

i cant find a ans anywhere in mi life 2 solve tis kind of prob,its nt mi strength 2 solve tis kind of thin.im nt tt experienced.

mayb til here u're wonderin y tis title is call changes instead of sadness.

well..i talk 2 mani craps which i jus abt 2 start mi main pt now.

tt is...

i thk its tym 4 mi 2 change.nt outside but inside.2 4get abt u.totally.

tks 4 all e laughters u hav brought 2 mi,intentionally,unintentionally.

tks 4 sort of encouragin mi whn im dwn,angry,or emoin.

tks 4 all e thins u hav help mi.its 2 mani 2 list.

but in e end,i hav 2 treat u as mi fren.i hav 2 try 2.

tho its painful but its tym.

frm now onwards i supposed a new mi will born,n e old one will disappear,along wits all e memo i hav wits u inside.

but thank you,realli.4 changin mi life.tho i hav 2 abandoned it in e end.

hope u're happy.cox tts all i can wish.

Damn Sick˙

ok...im usin mi last bit of energy 2 try 2 type tis post n findin sum reference 4 mi movie review... was half dead durin maths lesson...n felt evn worse whn i wake up frm mi aftrnoon nap...e feelin of havin a "heavy head"...gosh...



anw i visited sb's blog...seriously throw mi into deep thkin...well...i duno wad i feel exactly but i thk i still feels sad whn tt person feels sad...i noe i shldnt b goin 2 deep into tis but its jus an instinct...tho tt person wont noe how i feel,cox i nvr show..or shld say i nvr intend 2 show tt ckearly...wadeva reason it is..i shld stop all these..stop carin..stop thkin...stop worryin..with wad eva tt person said.its tym2 stop.realli.

Mad˙

i thk im jus 2 crazy...slp at 1+am yest n wake up at 7+am??i jus wake up frm nitemare...its superduper strange tt i kp dreamin tis few days...n waking up feelin evn more lost... haiz... maybe its a reflection of wad i thk in day?i duno...im nt a fortune teller or wad so cant analyse mi dream.. anw i stay up so late yest its becox im copyin hist notes scanned by Jin Feng online..lol.. his handwriting is ...*cough*..so i spnd alot of tym interpretatin it...but anw tks 2 him 4 providin mi all e info..n im still copyin now..sian... 2mrw schl reopen n i still gt loads of hw undone..




great.sweet life.


XK*

Gosh˙

it shall b e latest post i'd evr made....its suppose 2 b posted yest..but nvm...im rathr deep in thts tis few days...duno its 2 tried or othr reason...hav performance on 14march,put on lots of make up which i nid 2 wash mi face 3 tyms 2 remove it...n reach schl abt9pm n walk hm w xin hua hai long thy all..haha..

its been 2 busy tis wk 2 b superduper deep in tht but act i thk i am..its funni 2 thk of mi goin emo one day.mi frens who noe mi will laugh lyk xiao...=.=

i jus feel im deep in tht tis few days...but how deep in tht can i be?


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March Hol˙

gosh...tis wk hav been super busy but well...its ovr,i had ovrcum all e tests n is still alive!!HAHA!

lame..=.= .. anw i'll be dead agn by all e hol hw we hav tis march..

our class gt sum poor ppl fell sick 2day n didnt cum2 schl...erm..well,hope he gt well soon,lol..

anw...mi hol is super busy..everyday gt guitar prac as 14th March is e performance,haha...

but e fact is i can onli attend twice,as e othr days im havin mi make up lessons...sian...

i noe there r ppl who hav activities way more thn mi but i DUN CARE!!!cox its non of mi business!!HELLO~!? i cant slp properly tis march hol i guess...haiz...

anw 2day bio teachin e variation thingy in genes n we were doin 2 surveys on ppl havin single/double/mutiple(wth is tis la?sry 4 those who hav it..=.=)eyelid n also,e length of our middle finger(ya..u didnt c wrongly..) anw obviously mine is double eyelid4 sure...dunno how ppl gt mutiple eyelids...it sounds gross...


anw e middle finger length im 8.2cm falls undr e part of 8.0-8.5cm ahahahaha...dun ask mi y!!but Kenny n Wei jian gt e length btw8.6-9.0cm!!!wad e.....


Alex says thy mus hav been practising.....=.=


anw...i shld stop using words lyk wth...it doesnt sounds nice act..the..power of infuence..by mi classmates..








































sumtyms ppl ask mi y am i tryin so hard while e person dun evn care?well...i shld say im a simple retard..easily satisfied w little thingy...mayb u duno...but evn a short sentence u say makes alot diff 2 mi...


XK˙

Busy Wk˙

As e title suggest..its busy...so mani things happening tis wk,n i onli had e tym 2 rite dwn on sun..
sum i 4get,but there're sum big evnt happened tis wk..on wed,Dr.Boon n Ms.Chiong walk into our classrm 2 giv a talk,which i nearly fell aslp..haha..sry,n we had 10min extra recess as a result

anw our class had lots of $$missin cases so i guess we realli shld take care of our own belongings.. frm now onwards...more carefully..

e rest i kinda 4get...haha..tts how small mi memo is ,lyk goldfish i guess?3s n its gone

anw...schl 2mrw...n nxt wk gt 4 tests...mon el compo test,tues hcl test,thurs chem CT,fri bio test..


gosh...


n btw i noe a gy call wei thru JQ..he's frm tw oso,which makes mi feel pretty much ok 2 talk2 him.. we hvn mt tho..simply bcox hes 2 free while im 2 "busy" in sum sense..lol..anw tues i wnt 2 vivo city page one wits mi art class ppl...i shall say e place is DAMN nice!!i lyk bookshop alot..its quiet n nice n stuff...jus let mi feel v calm..n as we choose bks 4 our reference 4 o'level art,i gt e chance 2 talk 2 wei,e tw gy..frankly spkin...his voice is nice.lol.


anw tt day we onli gt hm at arnd8.30pm or approx9pm..poor yuen mun...duno when she gt hm tt day..haha.

XK˙